> I'm better off being with someone I don't have feelings for or find attractive, then I won't feel anything at all.
I know this feeling very well. My problem was that the anxiety of possible rejection was so strong, that I would never dare to ask the girl out.
There is something to be said about low anxiety light & fun dating with people that you are not 100% attracted to, as a way of managing anxiety. Only our stupid culture says that such light relationships are worthless - if you have a fun connection with another human being, who can say that doesn't have value.
I am the very worst person to give advice, because my romantic experience is so very slight. I am on the Autism/Aspergers spectrum, so my dating experience was pathetically slight, and I finally found myself attached to my wife by struggling with myself to not screw it up and be self-destructive and run away like was my prior pattern.
Please take care, you realizing you are over-reacting is a wonderfully healthy sign, and you will only have to display one-tenth of the charm and warmth you display on this message board to get what you desire out of life!
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