How do you stop beating yourself up

[Happysad]

I finally decided to get therapy and uncovered what I didn’t realise was sexual assault I guess because it wasn’t rape and I guess it wasn’t super bad so I always felt like I shouldn’t be upset about it. I’ve gotten to a point where I can’t trust men as I get anxious of them forcing themselves on me. I feel like I’ll be alone forever because I don’t put myself out there any more, I tend to look back at what I could have had but I was too emotionally unavailable at the time. I just want people that support me but in my hurt I feel like I’ve pushed everyone away and there’s not really anyone left. I hope I’m even making sense

[manuel_moe_g]

Pain is not a competition. Please don't beat yourself up because you are reeling from trauma, some trauma that you think is too small to matter. How it feels to you in the inside is what counts.

How do you feel that you have pushed people away?

All the best, please take care, you don't deserve this pain.