Success feels like failure

[manuel_moe_g]

In this chapter of the story of my battle with my mental illness, I am dealing with success that feels like failure. I am trudging on, which is pure success given my challenges. But I am sleeping too much, I am not exercising, in the shower I sit on the floor of the shower and let the water fall on me like rain. It is not very manly, and it bothers me.

[brownblob]

"Success is failure and failure ain't no success at all." Bob Dylan

When you're depressed everything feels like failure. There is no joy or pride in anything. In my depression, I questioned why I even bothered working or getting out of bed. At least you make it to the shower. In my depression, showers seem optional and horribly long. I know it sounds lame, but you've made it through before and you'll make it through again. I'm rooting for you and you are not alone.

[manuel_moe_g]

Yeah, at least I make it to the shower.

Thanks for the reply and the encouragement, brownblob.