The person who works out what I may not even know I profoundly need and deliberately provides it to me. I fear that person.
Being rejected and it not meaning the end of the relationship but instead strengthens it. I fear that.
People who openly get off on being cruel, especially when they just want to see your face change in the moment of recognition.
Being tricked into a situation, filled with the potential that I may need to sacrifice myself to save someone else, and not being able to go through with it. And then learning it was all a trick. And then not knowing if there's anything that's not a trick.
Literally dying of shock having survived intact from a trauma I've only recently discovered happened at all. Shock that could kick in at any time.
Fears
- Beany Boo
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Re: Fears
Emotional curiousity, when I haven't yet established sufficient trust to express it, and still don't know if I will, or can
People who show me that I'm seen, which reveals in stark contrast, everyone who doesn't show me I am and all the ways in which I'm not, seen
A life frozen by "sexual anorexia", and you don't even know where to start to thaw
People who show me that I'm seen, which reveals in stark contrast, everyone who doesn't show me I am and all the ways in which I'm not, seen
A life frozen by "sexual anorexia", and you don't even know where to start to thaw
Mr (blue) B. Boo
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
- Beany Boo
- Posts: 2565
- Joined: June 13th, 2016, 3:18 am
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- preferred pronoun: He/him
Re: Fears
Someone is waiting for me to be a vital part of their life and I may never get to them having to wade through all this shit first.
Mr (blue) B. Boo
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
- Beany Boo
- Posts: 2565
- Joined: June 13th, 2016, 3:18 am
- Gender: Not-quite-cis-male
- Issues: Risk averse, conversation difficulty, relationship difficulty
- preferred pronoun: He/him
Re: Fears
Having to do anything that needs to be done with obvious slowness; any task requiring me to take my time to work though, or to work it out; any activity that might distract me from someone approaching from a blind spot; embarking on any process where I risk losing sight of myself, before it is finished.
Mr (blue) B. Boo
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi