Birthdays
Posted: July 11th, 2022, 3:46 pm
So, maybe not so overwhelming (but depends on my state of mind).
Today I turned 65.
Sheeit! What the hell?!
Where did the time go?
Do I feel "65"? (it's just a number, right?)
Just saw "Elvis" - He died at 42.
How old was Lincoln when he was assassinated?
What about Caesar? The ancients?
The lowly schmucks building the pyramids in Egypt or the Americas?
Or in the diamond mines in Africa, or the open pit gold mines in South America?
Do I feel old?
Time is so slippery. I feel 45 ~ 50 maybe, but I can easily remember the last 15 ~20 if I think through them.
Good times, bad times. Slowly living thru the days.....
One thing that gets to me is that my father got his cancer diagnosis at 65, and only lived till 70.
Do I have 5 years?
Do I have tomorrow??
I've been on the edge of my seat, as it were, most of my adult life.
Watching the shitshow around me, and wondering when the ax will fall.
Not a rich person, and certainly not notable.
Feel "guilty" that nothing major has befallen me yet.
Is that fukked up, or what?
But the sun was shining today, and I got some birthday greetings on my phone.
So maybe it's not as bad as I can imagine.
One day at a time....
Today I turned 65.
Sheeit! What the hell?!
Where did the time go?
Do I feel "65"? (it's just a number, right?)
Just saw "Elvis" - He died at 42.
How old was Lincoln when he was assassinated?
What about Caesar? The ancients?
The lowly schmucks building the pyramids in Egypt or the Americas?
Or in the diamond mines in Africa, or the open pit gold mines in South America?
Do I feel old?
Time is so slippery. I feel 45 ~ 50 maybe, but I can easily remember the last 15 ~20 if I think through them.
Good times, bad times. Slowly living thru the days.....
One thing that gets to me is that my father got his cancer diagnosis at 65, and only lived till 70.
Do I have 5 years?
Do I have tomorrow??
I've been on the edge of my seat, as it were, most of my adult life.
Watching the shitshow around me, and wondering when the ax will fall.
Not a rich person, and certainly not notable.
Feel "guilty" that nothing major has befallen me yet.
Is that fukked up, or what?
But the sun was shining today, and I got some birthday greetings on my phone.
So maybe it's not as bad as I can imagine.
One day at a time....
(NOT! 
)
)