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Beany Boo
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I want:

To react to grown ups who take advantage of me; even if I'm not capable of discerning how it's happening; or of understanding how I am while it is, now; in memories; that feel wrong.
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I want:

To place my mind's health ahead of everything else; for a while.
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Beany Boo wrote:I want:

To place my mind's health ahead of everything else; for a while.
I celebrate this effort. It is a worthy effort.
Work is love made visible. -Kahlil Gibran
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Which is better: to be born good or to overcome your evil nature through great effort? -Skyrim
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Oak :D
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I want:

To be a freak in the work I do; freakish capacity; and technique; freakishly effective; and poetic.
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I want:

To imagine what it would feel like to be of more value.
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I so hear that one.
'The field “Issues” is too long, a maximum of 80 characters is allowed.' Wow. Totally outed by a message board.

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HowDidIGetHere :)
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I have been swapping the words in my head, though. What it would be like to feel of more value. :)
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Wow, yeah, my imagination is definitely running that one now too.

I think that is basically what is facing us as children. And subject to limits, we imagine it until we either do feel it, or until we break ourselves from trying.

... that is full on...

The adult response might be to stop trying; and start trusting in the existence of your innate value; whatever it ends up being; that it's something flowing outwards, and should just be allowed to.

I hate myself. :D
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