GirlySunglasses Diary

[GirlySunglasses]

I don't know how to connect to people, and I've hidden myself so well that people don't see me.
To let people see me, I need to trust them, but I learned not to trust at a young age.
I think everybody is against, me, everybody is out to get me, everybody is badmouthing me and judging me when I'm not around.

I am a mess.

I don't wanna be a mess.

I broke down during last week therapy's session and told my therapist I hate myself, I'm ashamed of myself. I've written that before online, I've even told that to myself before. But I never said it out loud to someone else.

I'm hurting ever since. I'm down and depressed ever since. My next session is tomorrow but I needed to say this before that. I'm not okay.

[Beany Boo]

I accept that you're not okay.

Welcome.

[oak]

Congratulations for using your words here and with your therapist.

If we're only as sick as our secrets, you are now healthier!

[GirlySunglasses]

I am so freaking angry right now.
The worse part is I know it's because of something stupid.
It doesn't matter though, because I'm so pissed my chest is aching and I feel like screaming or crying or both.
I'm being an idiot and damn I can't help myself. Why do I have to be this way?

[richardsalvo]

I think she is just expressing herself.