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by bestia
November 8th, 2012, 5:18 am
Forum: How Do You Feel Right Now
Topic: Hopeless
Replies: 2
Views: 994

Re: Hopeless

I had a bad day. I'm ok now. Right now I'm not seeing a therapist. I have in the past, with rather mixed results, to put it mildly. And since I thought I had a handle on it, I didn't see a need anymore. I have a good friend though who I can talk to about it. I talked to her today, mentioning a momen...
by bestia
November 6th, 2012, 6:55 pm
Forum: How Do You Feel Right Now
Topic: Hopeless
Replies: 2
Views: 994

Hopeless

I'm having a less than great day. I was going through expert testimony and medical records of a murder and rape case involving a victim coerced into compliance, and there were questions about how guilty she was of the acts that she had assisted her husband with. The team of therapists evaluating her...
by bestia
August 11th, 2012, 3:47 pm
Forum: How Do You Feel Right Now
Topic: Confused - an update
Replies: 14
Views: 2763

Re: Confused - an update

Happy birthday http://vksempireofdirt.com/wp-content/uploads/2008/02/bro-hug.jpg I'm wondering what you're burning to fuel your endurance. Talking physically, we have fat stores we can burn when we need energy, and when those are gone, we begin consuming ourselves, our muscles, our bones, our vital ...
by bestia
August 7th, 2012, 5:53 am
Forum: How Do You Feel Right Now
Topic: Confused - an update
Replies: 14
Views: 2763

Re: Confused - an update

During the worst of it for me I found that venting online helped a lot. By writing out your feelings you have to take something that might be all over the place and craft it into something linear and coherent. That process alone was a big help in cleaning up the mess in my head a bit. Hm... I had th...
by bestia
August 4th, 2012, 1:00 pm
Forum: How Do You Feel Right Now
Topic: Gratitude
Replies: 1
Views: 876

Gratitude

I can't remember having had a day like this. Out of nowhere I've found myself crying today multiple times, but out of happiness, and gratitude. Almost feels like a new kind of mental illness ;) There are such good people in this world, and in my life. For example, when I thought my daughter from an ...
by bestia
August 2nd, 2012, 5:18 am
Forum: How Do You Feel Right Now
Topic: I don't know how to figure out what I need
Replies: 7
Views: 1786

Re: I don't know how to figure out what I need

I have zero advice, but I hear you. What you're looking for is the exact same thing I'm looking for. I left a woman I loved a lot because I thought our relationship wasn't going to get better, and we had some bad boundary issues. I only learned about boundaries while in that relationship. What a nov...
by bestia
August 1st, 2012, 1:30 pm
Forum: How Do You Feel Right Now
Topic: I don't know how to figure out what I need
Replies: 7
Views: 1786

Re: I don't know how to figure out what I need

Same here. She was 38 when we met. I was 18. Eventually it was this desire to have a child of my own that I used to pull myself away from her influence initially and move out. That desire turned out to be stronger than this mutation of guilt and resignation I used to call love back then. Hm... If sh...
by bestia
August 1st, 2012, 12:15 pm
Forum: How Do You Feel Right Now
Topic: I don't know how to figure out what I need
Replies: 7
Views: 1786

Re: I don't know how to figure out what I need

I don't know your exact situation, but just from how you feel right now, it sounds very familiar. It was a bad place to be. Something I was lacking then was a clear vision of the future. A goal, and a path. After so many years I didn't even know what that kind of clarity could be like, or that I was...
by bestia
July 30th, 2012, 9:26 am
Forum: Introduce Yourself Here
Topic: Hi everyone
Replies: 4
Views: 992

Re: Hi everyone

Thanks for the warm welcome y'all :) @imperfectrhyme BDSM is kind of a double edged sword in my eyes. One of the problems with communities such as fetlife is that you will find rationalizations for any kind of destructive behavior up to and including mutilation, psychological and physical.There are ...
by bestia
July 21st, 2012, 10:36 pm
Forum: Introduce Yourself Here
Topic: Hi everyone
Replies: 4
Views: 992

Hi everyone

So, where to begin... I'm a 30 years old born American living across the Atlantic. I heard of this podcast on Marc Maron's first, and right away thought it was a fantastic idea. In order to be a good cook I think it's important that you develop a love for the process. I'm a terrible cook, but I have...

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