YOU ARE NOT ALONE - A companion online community discussion board for The Mental Illness Happy Hour podcast with Paul Gilmartin

I keep having dreams about suicide. Either I'm trying to kill myself and people are stopping or trying to stop me, or I'm talking about it in my dream, or I'm in the hospital again, or in the process of being admitted. It is a very disorienting experience. Especially because I'm trying to get my lif...

Thanks ironhorse. I managed to make it through Saturday, but it was rough. I was distracted and rather unmotivated, but I managed ok. I ended up skipping a few of my regular routines, just because being around that much noise was making me jumpy. I think the frustration comes in that I'm not normall...

Not good. Physically and mentally drained, but I can't really pinpoint why. I did try to work out this morning, but their were so many people. It was like overstimulation I think. And now I've got to go back for work and I am just dreading it. All the noise and activity...it's just too much. Being o...

I'm going to talk to my therapist about EMDR. Being hospitalized this last time has brought up a lot of things we need to discuss, but I can at least get the ball rolling. Thanks for the helpful info. We will see how things go. I am sort of frustrated with myself for pushing it away the first time. ...

Trauma seems to be a reoccurring theme recently.... This has happened twice now, both times after major depressive suicidal episodes that landed me in the hospital. In quiet moments of reflection, (or just quiet moments) the name of a particular family friend will pop into my mind. Let's call this m...

I survived the weekend; it was a bit hellish. I went from feeling great to confining myself to my bed-- because there wasn't anything in my room I could use to hurt myself. So, if I just stayed in my bed and didn't move, I could trick fate, and avoid whatever bad thing would happen if I got up. It w...

I really sympathize with you. I'm in a similar situation, but I'm just working part time right now. I have massive amounts of debt, and really should get another job, but I'm almost certian that if I added another job to my schedule that I'd probably end up killing myself. Can you just work part tim...

----I feel like i did right after I got out. Reckless. Defiant. Like I want to get piercings or a tattoo, get wasted in some random bar, get a new wardrobe and reinvent myself. Like I want to drive fast and not wear a seatbelt, cause really, who needs seat belts? I don't want to eat, even though I'm...

So, I've recently upped my pristique dose(with doctor supervision), and overall things are going well. The only side effect that I'm dealing with is ridiculous night sweats. I'll wake up DRENCHED in sweat. It's so bad that I've had to get up at 3 am to change my clothes and sheet. Sometimes I just g...

I took seraquil for a good 8 years, but I am hesitant to detail my experience because it was rather negative. I don't want to scare you or turn you off to a med that is helpful to you. The only thing I can really suggest is that you take it slow if you do increase it. When I had a similar problem wi...