YOU ARE NOT ALONE - A companion online community discussion board for The Mental Illness Happy Hour podcast with Paul Gilmartin

Thanks Moe. I really appreciate your response and the encouragement you have given me.

Insensitive things people have said about my renal failure: At least its not cancer. I've gotten this one at least 6 times. So much that I've stopped telling people about my kidney disease and my need for a transplant just because I don't want to hear it again. No. Its not cancer. But by saying that...

Dear Diary, Well, I just spent the last 2 hours applying for jobs. SSI didn’t come through, so I’m going to try and get a job and see how that goes. Right now, I feel like I could deal with it. It might be pretty difficult, but I think I could do it. I’m aiming for 20 hrs a week. We will see how I d...

10/24/14 Life isn’t beautiful. It’s a scrabbling, scuffling, strain A morass mess of Tangled, tortured, twisted souls stalwartly struggling to Subsist on sickening scraps Scraps thrown down by Atrocious acolytes who Preach, pell-mell, the perils of peace Heartily hearkening heartbreak While we exist...

Flat lined. That is how I feel. My dr. and I decided to try and decrease my anti depressant because it was sending me into hypo manic episodes. And now, I’m just…flat. There is no reason to get up in the morning. There is no reason to do anything. I just screwed up my whole week last week. Missed ch...

9-30-14 Ok. So my doctor keeps talking about dialysis. I thought I had more time. Each doctor treats it differently. Dr.A wants to start me on dialysis while Dr.C wanted to wait until I was down to 10 percent. I’m so bloody confused. Overwhelmed. I wish I knew the right decision. Maybe there is no “...

9-12-14 Well, that little bit of relief kinda went kaput. The last 2 days have been on the low side, and all I want to do today is sleep so I don’t have to be awake with my thoughts. Problem is I know that will freak people out, so maybe I’ll go play video games or something. Of course, I could do w...

9-10-14 I don’t really have much to say. I guess I’ve got to stop trying to convince people I’m ok and just start living my life. Not worrying about what they think, or whether they think I’m ready or not. If I just live my life, maybe that in it self will convince them. Or maybe not. But at least I...

Omg yes, anymomentinthewoods. I may not get manic per say, but all the times I've been hospitalized for suicidal idealization have coincided with my cycle. Like literately one or two days after I'm in the hospital I'll start. The week leading up to my cycle is hell, and the week of my cycle sucks, b...

Wow. That sounds incredibly frustrating. I'm so sorry for the frustration, stress and exhaustion you are experiencing. I am in awe of the amount of kindness you have shows your room mate. You sound like a person with a big heart and a lot to offer humanity and the people around her. I just want to e...