C (I'm A Fuckin' Walkin' Paradox, No I'm Not)

[xoxoxc]

Two drinks in and I'm ready to start this shit
Thank God alcoholism is so socially acceptable

One. Suicidal girl whose grandfather recently committed killed himself
Can you say GUILT COMPLEX EXTRAORDINAIRE?

Two. Got dat Zoloft, maximum prescribable dose on the daily
Sometimes I think it can't POSSIBLY be working, since I'm still so depressed, but then I go off it and well..

Three. I guess I'm technically homeless at this point
The kind of homeless that involves me typing this on my MacBook Pro while sipping organic hard cider. It's whatever

Four. I'm in love with this FUCKING ASSHOLE, two years running
Actually he's the most wonderful person I've ever met. But really he SUCKS. Yah feel me?

Five. Gotta head fulla static. White, white noise all the FUCKING time
Never really succeeded at anything, if you think about it

Peace and blessings

[manuel_moe_g]

Hello xoxoxc! Please stick around a while!

[weary]

Hi xoxoxc. I hear that you are hurting a lot, but I appreciate you taking the plunge and posting and the way you expressed yourself was very compelling and heartfelt. Looking forward to hearing more from you - I think that you will find some caring and support on here if you give it a chance.

[heart]

Hey welcome! I related to so much of that.
2 Weeks ago I decided to kill myself and then my grandfather died the very same day I planned it from a heart attack. Hahaha yeah guilt complex.
And I doubted that my prozac was working so I went off it to 'test' it and haha turns out I'm a bigger mess than I thought. Stick with it.

Anyways whatever you are dealing with you already succeeded by reaching out