Nervous as HELL!
Posted: November 19th, 2015, 8:40 am
Hello Everyone! I'm new here (obviously) but have been listening to the podcast pretty much nonstop for several months now. I was recently diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and have been in therapy for a little over a year. I was raised in a REALLY fucked up household. Emotionally and psychologically abusive dad and passive "Oh that's just your dad being your dad" mom. I was molested for three years by another girl at the daycare/after school program I went to and my parents pretty much ignored it and said I was making things up. Then I was raped on my 21st birthday. I never told anyone until a little while ago.
I work as a therapist with adolescents who have experienced trauma in an inpatient facility. I am VERY hesitant to discuss my issues with others cause I am so afraid of judgment for being BPD and working in mental health. This disorder has a MAJOR stigma in the mental health field, even though increasing research shows that it (along with all other personality disorders) are on a spectrum and not all borderlines are created equal. I used to have major issues (understatement), which I'm sure I'll get more into as I hang out here, but therapy has really helped me feel more in control and trust myself. I love working with kids and relating to them. I don't self-disclose to them for obvious reasons but I definitely think that the empathy I show in my sessions is a different level than most of them have experienced with other therapists. Not at ALL saying that I'm the greatest therapist ever and that all other therapists who don't have trauma suck ass, but it's just a different approach and perspective that I think I give.
Anyway, that's me in a nutshell. Feel free to ask questions or whatever! I joined this forum because I spend so much time encouraging others to find support so they don't feel so alone...and then I realized that I feel pretty alone sometimes.
I work as a therapist with adolescents who have experienced trauma in an inpatient facility. I am VERY hesitant to discuss my issues with others cause I am so afraid of judgment for being BPD and working in mental health. This disorder has a MAJOR stigma in the mental health field, even though increasing research shows that it (along with all other personality disorders) are on a spectrum and not all borderlines are created equal. I used to have major issues (understatement), which I'm sure I'll get more into as I hang out here, but therapy has really helped me feel more in control and trust myself. I love working with kids and relating to them. I don't self-disclose to them for obvious reasons but I definitely think that the empathy I show in my sessions is a different level than most of them have experienced with other therapists. Not at ALL saying that I'm the greatest therapist ever and that all other therapists who don't have trauma suck ass, but it's just a different approach and perspective that I think I give.
Anyway, that's me in a nutshell. Feel free to ask questions or whatever! I joined this forum because I spend so much time encouraging others to find support so they don't feel so alone...and then I realized that I feel pretty alone sometimes.
