60 miles to the nearest Flashing Light
Posted: August 9th, 2016, 1:22 pm
Hi I live in a very small North Dakota town. I also have an alcohol problem. I have started to become weepy. I am trying to finish up the house to sell. I need to lay some floor in the bathroom, paint the kitchen and put up some trim in the bathroom. I was able to wash some dishes today. Four or five years ago I had a real issue. I could no longer read, drive , pump gas, watch a movie, just shut down. Today I can drive and pump gas and write this. 
But confusion continues on my brain. I still have the same phone as I did 5 years ago and I don't know how to twitter. I am returning to live with my mother who has financial problems and her husband ( they have been married for 40 years) He has been having strokes for 20 years plus 2 types of cancer(remission) has had by passes and difibulator and pacemaker and the guy wont die. We all want this. My head is so very fuzzy and I just am not getting the house done. I don't have much left to do- well much more that I have stated above. I know that I must stay away from thoughts like-" I am a burden" I have a tough time leaving the house. I was brave and got the garbage can. lol well it does prevent me from buying wine most days. I have a great support group were I am moving to I have AA and Smart and another recovery group. Plus my family which is good and also stressful. My mother is so worried about me. I know I am lucky but am so fuzzy in the head. I would be doing so much better if I wasn't so isolated and I have so much anxiety right now. It is hard to motivate. I think that I am going to get a person to check on me. This nice lady may come and visit me lol just have to go to her house and ask lol
But confusion continues on my brain. I still have the same phone as I did 5 years ago and I don't know how to twitter. I am returning to live with my mother who has financial problems and her husband ( they have been married for 40 years) He has been having strokes for 20 years plus 2 types of cancer(remission) has had by passes and difibulator and pacemaker and the guy wont die. We all want this. My head is so very fuzzy and I just am not getting the house done. I don't have much left to do- well much more that I have stated above. I know that I must stay away from thoughts like-" I am a burden" I have a tough time leaving the house. I was brave and got the garbage can. lol well it does prevent me from buying wine most days. I have a great support group were I am moving to I have AA and Smart and another recovery group. Plus my family which is good and also stressful. My mother is so worried about me. I know I am lucky but am so fuzzy in the head. I would be doing so much better if I wasn't so isolated and I have so much anxiety right now. It is hard to motivate. I think that I am going to get a person to check on me. This nice lady may come and visit me lol just have to go to her house and ask lol