Anxietyriddenmomof4
Posted: May 31st, 2019, 12:14 am
Hello! I'm a newbie just dropping in and saying hi! I'm 26 yrs old with 4 kids.....the black sheep of my family, I struggle with addiction. My addiction was caused as a cooping mechanism for my depression and anxiety as a kid. It shut off the pain and my demons that I've always carried with me (I refer to my demons quite regularly, the not so desired traits about myself). I grew up in a very chaotic and dysfunctional and broken home. growing up I falsely idolized my father. I did anything and everything I could to win his approval yet always feeling like I was falling short. He tried too hard to be a friend to me till right before I turned 18. My mom is was the opposite, very closed off, unemotional, extremely strict helicopter parent. I was shoved into so many sports and band and choir I wasn't able to feel like I was a kid. My mother expected perfection. While my father expected to treat me as a friend while also expecting me to care for my sister who is almost 3 yrs younger. While he was off at work out of state (sometimes up to 6-8hrs away) for up to a week at a time for work. I was 13 at the time.....
My struggles definitely started extremely young for me. I didn't start receiving help tho till I was 12......years after the dark parts started creeping in.
Well I guess that's a lil snippet on me. There's so much more but it's far too much for now. If anyone is curious about anything feel free to strike up conversation.
My struggles definitely started extremely young for me. I didn't start receiving help tho till I was 12......years after the dark parts started creeping in.
Well I guess that's a lil snippet on me. There's so much more but it's far too much for now. If anyone is curious about anything feel free to strike up conversation.