Long dark tea time of the soul...
Posted: May 18th, 2012, 5:23 pm
My Name is Valerie. I thought I'd open with a Douglas Adams book title. Douglas Adams was one of my first introductions to deep thinking. He had bouts of depression too.
Anyhoo, I have many issues with depression and anxiety. I have overcome many of them without meds (well, legal ones anyway) but have wondered if maybe a small dose of antidepressant could take me the rest of the way out. Strangely, I find myself embracing the low moments as learning experiences, and a time to develop coping mechanisms. I think it has allowed me to be more understanding of other people as well. I was abandoned by my father, and emotionally corrupted by my mother and grandmother. I had a child at 18 and went the adoption route. This has caused many emotional issues for me, hopefully only me and not him which was the point. So far it seems that this is the case. He is happy and healthy, yet I still feel guilty. I have abandonment issues, father issues, control issues, bouts of depression, rejection issues (probably the worst of all). I have felt really down these past few days. Looking for jobs when you have rejection issues will do that. TMIHH has helped me enormously today. I just found it and will always be a listener from this day forward. "you are not alone" is the mantra and it is proven with every story they tell. Keep listening and don't give up!!
Anyhoo, I have many issues with depression and anxiety. I have overcome many of them without meds (well, legal ones anyway) but have wondered if maybe a small dose of antidepressant could take me the rest of the way out. Strangely, I find myself embracing the low moments as learning experiences, and a time to develop coping mechanisms. I think it has allowed me to be more understanding of other people as well. I was abandoned by my father, and emotionally corrupted by my mother and grandmother. I had a child at 18 and went the adoption route. This has caused many emotional issues for me, hopefully only me and not him which was the point. So far it seems that this is the case. He is happy and healthy, yet I still feel guilty. I have abandonment issues, father issues, control issues, bouts of depression, rejection issues (probably the worst of all). I have felt really down these past few days. Looking for jobs when you have rejection issues will do that. TMIHH has helped me enormously today. I just found it and will always be a listener from this day forward. "you are not alone" is the mantra and it is proven with every story they tell. Keep listening and don't give up!!
