Never felt I was such a mess
Posted: June 25th, 2012, 4:18 pm
I've been struggling with ADHD and an alcoholic mother who, as of recently, I consider a full-fledged narcissist.
I thought I had done most of my work in my twenties and thirties, but it turns out I am a just a boy in my late-forties. I feel like parenthood has just been assigned to me - like a grandparent who gained custody. It may cost me my marriage and I'm not sure I even want to be a parent - even as a parent to myself, at this age. I thought parenting was something you chose!
I am simply beside myself. I have never been so embarrassed or scared in my life.
I feel it has cost me a great deal of money, friends, career opportunities, and potentially the only good thing in my life - my wife. I just hope I am somewhere in the vicinity of the bottom.
I thought I had done most of my work in my twenties and thirties, but it turns out I am a just a boy in my late-forties. I feel like parenthood has just been assigned to me - like a grandparent who gained custody. It may cost me my marriage and I'm not sure I even want to be a parent - even as a parent to myself, at this age. I thought parenting was something you chose!
I am simply beside myself. I have never been so embarrassed or scared in my life.
I feel it has cost me a great deal of money, friends, career opportunities, and potentially the only good thing in my life - my wife. I just hope I am somewhere in the vicinity of the bottom.