This place was/is the start of something great for me
Posted: February 8th, 2013, 6:18 pm
Hi
I started listening to TMIHH (is this how it's abbreviated?) in December & am immensely thankful for it.
When I first found the podcast, I was depressed, stuck, binge eating & starting to get hopeless. Last summer I finally found a family doctor & on top of the list was my untreated ADD/anxiety/depression. The immediate response from the doc was hesitant, but I was referred to a psychiatrist for an evaluation who diagnosed me as having all three of the above. I didn't want to treat the depression with anti depressants as I had taken some when I was in my late teens & the effects terrified me. She suggested I take Adderall to alleviate the two other symptoms. She also advised me to see a therapist as she found my upbringing to be... I forget the words she used, but effectively kind of messed up. I didn't want to consider therapy since in every portrayal I'd seen of it, it was this wishy-washy emotional thing where people cry over spilled milk. & besides, I wasn't abused - why would I need it? but as 'fate' would have it, Paul went on Chris Hardwick's 'The Nerdist' podcast which I had just gotten into recently & something about it pulled me in. So I started at the very first podcast & worked my way forward. I often found myself cringing at Paul's - well at Paul in general (Whatever it was I either got used to, or Paul got better at) and want to just pause the podcast & find something else, but I'm so glad I pushed through. But a few episodes in, i felt the need to try this therapy thing out, it seemed to help people I'd otherwise respect.
Well that changed everything. I won't go into details, but it's been so freeing & enlightening. I found huge pockets of... I don't know what to call it, but parts of myself I had just kind of forgotten about or lost. It's only 2 months in, but I feel as though I'm no longer spiraling downwards, I'm just spinning in place instead. Close enough.
Thanks Paul.
I started listening to TMIHH (is this how it's abbreviated?) in December & am immensely thankful for it.
When I first found the podcast, I was depressed, stuck, binge eating & starting to get hopeless. Last summer I finally found a family doctor & on top of the list was my untreated ADD/anxiety/depression. The immediate response from the doc was hesitant, but I was referred to a psychiatrist for an evaluation who diagnosed me as having all three of the above. I didn't want to treat the depression with anti depressants as I had taken some when I was in my late teens & the effects terrified me. She suggested I take Adderall to alleviate the two other symptoms. She also advised me to see a therapist as she found my upbringing to be... I forget the words she used, but effectively kind of messed up. I didn't want to consider therapy since in every portrayal I'd seen of it, it was this wishy-washy emotional thing where people cry over spilled milk. & besides, I wasn't abused - why would I need it? but as 'fate' would have it, Paul went on Chris Hardwick's 'The Nerdist' podcast which I had just gotten into recently & something about it pulled me in. So I started at the very first podcast & worked my way forward. I often found myself cringing at Paul's - well at Paul in general (Whatever it was I either got used to, or Paul got better at) and want to just pause the podcast & find something else, but I'm so glad I pushed through. But a few episodes in, i felt the need to try this therapy thing out, it seemed to help people I'd otherwise respect.
Well that changed everything. I won't go into details, but it's been so freeing & enlightening. I found huge pockets of... I don't know what to call it, but parts of myself I had just kind of forgotten about or lost. It's only 2 months in, but I feel as though I'm no longer spiraling downwards, I'm just spinning in place instead. Close enough.
Thanks Paul.
and I'm glad you feel connected!