hi
Posted: February 18th, 2013, 1:57 am
So...
Im 45,divorced, father of 2 boys. Listening for about 2 years and i love Paul's painful honesty
Dx'd with cyclothymia about a year ago. Every day is a challenge. My oldest son (9) has Autism, my youngest has anxiety problems. I was married for 17 years. We dated for 8 years. She left me and moved in with the guy she had an affair with.
Right now my existance seems wrapped up in this house. It was the one she wanted. Im upside down in the mortgage. Its falling apart and everywhere i look i see things wrong with the house that make me want to burn it oto the ground. Too much to fix. I feel im stuck here. Its too big, i cant afford it, and it reminds me of her.
Today was the most comfortable i felt with the idea of dying. Everything seems a bridge too far.
I know these felings will pass, but i also know they will be back
Im not getting anything out of this life
Im 45,divorced, father of 2 boys. Listening for about 2 years and i love Paul's painful honesty
Dx'd with cyclothymia about a year ago. Every day is a challenge. My oldest son (9) has Autism, my youngest has anxiety problems. I was married for 17 years. We dated for 8 years. She left me and moved in with the guy she had an affair with.
Right now my existance seems wrapped up in this house. It was the one she wanted. Im upside down in the mortgage. Its falling apart and everywhere i look i see things wrong with the house that make me want to burn it oto the ground. Too much to fix. I feel im stuck here. Its too big, i cant afford it, and it reminds me of her.
Today was the most comfortable i felt with the idea of dying. Everything seems a bridge too far.
I know these felings will pass, but i also know they will be back
Im not getting anything out of this life