Hello

[LostInThought83]

I turned 30 this year and it seems like the anxiety is worse than ever.

My doctor diagnosed me with depression and anxiety--- I suspect that the anxiety is accurate but the depression doesn't seem to fit. I am low now but I wasn't always--- For years I was on top of the world... I suspect that I have bipolar but that's a discussion I guess I have to keep having with him.

So.... more about my background: I am the oldest of a large group of sisters and my parents are still married. There haven't been any traumatic events in my life and I still live with my parents... I was always viewed as the smart one and the one who would make something out of myself. Instead of doing that, this anxiety and whatever-else-it-is-that-I-have have created a situation where I am completely incapable of doing anything to take steps forward.

I have an undergraduate and graduate degree -- and I work in a job where I need neither. I've stagnated and I feel like a disappointment to the world.

The anxiety gets so bad that I cancel plans with friends, family and miss work. I genuinely feel like this isn't a true representation of me but rather just me being held hostage by this condition.

Anyway, I started listening the MIHH a couple of weeks ago in addition to taking my meds and going to group. It feels good to hear the voices of people who know some of what I'm going through.

[ghughes1980]

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