Self Saboteur

[BBQ Dude]

Hi from MN.

Recently single cause I fucked up.
I own a catering business and work IT during the week.
Been listening to Paul for a little over a year.
Finally had my first therapy session last week.
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Iraq Vet
Drug and alcohol use, depression, narcissism, abused by mother, father never said anything or objected.

I seem to sabotage my life just as things start to get good.

[RisingUpAgain]

Welcome to the forum. First off, congratulations on going to therapy man! That is a big step. If you don't click with the first therapist there are always more. It has taken me over three years of therapy and over 6 different therapists before I found one who is fantastic for me. They each taught me something along the way though.

I can understand some of your issues. Depression and alcohol are two big ones.

Stick around. You can get better if you put in the work. Paul's podcasts are a great start. He said in one of them that working on ourselves sucks sometimes, it just really sucks and he is right. It will be hard as shit and you will mess up a ton but you can get better so you don't sabotage as much and eventually not at all.

Have a good night!

[BBQ Dude]

Thanks you.