YOU ARE NOT ALONE - A companion online community discussion board for The Mental Illness Happy Hour podcast with Paul Gilmartin

I am a woman who has had much time devoted to learning about my illness of depression and then anxiety - It doesnt mean that i get well - another day today shows me that. I am moving and doing things that will be positive for today - and within the last few weeks come into the world of podcasts - LOL - really funny because i am always thinking that I am on the back end of things and this is proof - listening to MI HAPPY HOUR is great - I have wanted this for awhile - a way to talk about my illness that helps me learn and grow - and when i first tried it, i HATED it - i started with the year 2014 and the readings at the beginning were so raw that i felt put off - but then i kept going because I knew it might be "just me" - (that tells me I have grown)

Can i get some constructive feedback?
What is it about the illness (i think its the depression part -altho it could be anxiety) that when i talk it feels like the words i say FALL OFF A CLIFF - that part of SELF CONSCIOUS just seems to SHOUT OUT LOUD without making a sound - its SO obvious to me but not anyone else
I really want the SELF CONSCIOUS to be gone - it could help me relax like a LOT

I have had treatment that has NOT worked with a list of antidepressants that could choke a horse - so its a time of without medication which is also important to note

There is NOTHING WRONG WITH MY LIFE - It really is ALL IN MY MIND - so I am working on changing the input

thanks for listening

There are plenty of things wrong with your life. But those things are all things that you've conjured up in your worst moments and aren't necessarily real. I know that this is going to sound like something that you'll roll your eyes at, because that's how depression clouds shit. But you aren't worthless on the inside.

Thanks for the reply - I agree - I just wish it (the depression) would let go of me - I get tired of it and then when it is gone, wonder why - its like i lost something - kind of silly that- just trying to keep moving.. thanks for listening

It's like a really toxic friend. You need them, but depression never fails to be a total douchebag to you when it's around. But you get so comfortable that, well. You can't picture life without it. Have you been in therapy for your depression?

ey all. Just wanted to introduce myself. My name is Daisy and I have ignored my problems for so long that I let them take everything from me. I am an avid writer who tries to record my flashbacks with a pen.