Re: Latest mini episode - arrogance not a problem?
Posted: April 9th, 2014, 12:52 am
Thanks.
I think the key of what you've said is I need to have self respect. The problem is I have no respect for myself as I don't deserve any. I don't respect anyone who has achieved so little, failed so much and is unable to do anything of any worth. Everything I do either fails or comes up short compared to everybody else. It's not like I even do anything difficult, it's things everybody else around can do easily. If I could become a worthwhile person I'd deserve to be happy but right now I have no right to happiness as I'm not worthwhile enough to deserve it.
Also just to add back story I have no no abuse or trauma in my history. It's nobody else's fault I'm worthless. I have nobody to blame but myself.
P.S. Good use of spazz, it made me smile. That word doesn't get used much over here in the UK (it's considered offensive, I know it's not in the US) but still brings out a childish 'teehee' response in me!
I think the key of what you've said is I need to have self respect. The problem is I have no respect for myself as I don't deserve any. I don't respect anyone who has achieved so little, failed so much and is unable to do anything of any worth. Everything I do either fails or comes up short compared to everybody else. It's not like I even do anything difficult, it's things everybody else around can do easily. If I could become a worthwhile person I'd deserve to be happy but right now I have no right to happiness as I'm not worthwhile enough to deserve it.
Also just to add back story I have no no abuse or trauma in my history. It's nobody else's fault I'm worthless. I have nobody to blame but myself.
P.S. Good use of spazz, it made me smile. That word doesn't get used much over here in the UK (it's considered offensive, I know it's not in the US) but still brings out a childish 'teehee' response in me!