Drained

[jenloiacono]

Ugh, I feel like there is no possible way I can face work tomorrow. I'm so close to getting a new job, and while that is exciting, it is making it exeedingly painful to keep showing up to my current job. I just want to crawl in bed and spend tomorrow with my head under the covers..

And now I feel guilting for bitching about my job. "I should be happy that I have a job at all in this economy" is what I keep hearing. It's like i'm being looked down on for trying to find something that will hopefully make me less miserable.

Now I'm confused and my brain hurts..

[jenloiacono]

Just re-read what I wrote.. And I guess this one of those "and both" situations my therapist is always pointing out to me. I guess I am allowed to feel both happy to have a job and be able to pay my bills while also feeling exhausted and drained and wanting something better.

I'm not always very good at seeing the "and both". I tend to see things in black and white, "this or that" terms.

[Murphy]

It's definitely a "both" situation from my perspective. Just because there are people with "worse" problems, doesn't mean that you aren't allowed to have any problems of your own.

[The Sleeper]

Oooh "both"! I'm glad you replied to and analyzed your own post because I have a lot of trouble with this concept also. I also hate my job but feel guilty for hating it. Good for you for getting a new one! I hope it is better!