Restarted seeing a therapist, in a double-dip depression.

[manuel_moe_g]

In the middle of a double-dip depression - feeling my depression come on stronger, even thought I am already in a long bout of increased depression.

Proud of myself that I am doing the therapy thing.

Mainly:

[1] letting my egoistic grandiosity go,

[2] realizing that a 3% improvement I can maintain and build upon is valuable

[3] putting aside hope for a "bolt from the blue" that solves all my problems

[4] using Buddhist acceptance, mindfulness, compassion, patience, peace as a way to live with my ADHD mind

I am a pretty depressed dude right now, with whole bunches of feelings of overwhelm and anxiety and defeat. But I am still putting one foot in front of the other, which is good.

[Rosie]

Hi Manuel

Sorry you're having a tough time, going back to therapy will help a bit I'm sure. I'm feeling it too so you've got company, I've been thinking of going through CBT to try to change the way I feel about myself. I'll put one foot in front of the other beside you. Big hugs from me, Rosie

[manuel_moe_g]

Thanks, Rosie! I have to tutor myself and build myself up, just like when I try to tutor someone on something I know about, like math. I try different things, I work around the edges until the way to help is clear, and I build them up and never tear them down, and I let them know all the resources available to them. Just do the same for myself.

Thanks again, Rosie, for your warm words!

[in_media_res]

Sorry to hear it Manuel. Any ideas on why you're feeling the way you are? Uncover something in therapy?

Hang in there.

[manuel_moe_g]

I am using cognitive therapy to improve my life and performance, not really to unearth anything from my past. I have always been intensely honest (TMI is my MO ) so I don't really expect anything to be uncovered - my double-dip depression is probably chemical. I am really anxious about changing my meds that I have been stable on for so many years, but new meds is a possibility