I feel bad

[CosM129]

I feel suicidal there I said it. Every morning these days I wake up to feel like I want to kill myself, I hate it
I'm lost I don't want my husband or job to be everything to me in my life, the be all end all. I want to, want to be, independent if I lost these so important aspects of my life to not be unable to deal with it, no thank you! I've seen what that does to people I need to love me or like myself or just have some other things in life

I promise I won't hurt myself ok I mean it

I'm just 42 ,alone (mostly), no kids, no friends, no hobbies , no direction, FAT, I've gotten so FAT, scared about too much, off work so I will have to catch up and be a low down on the ladder, and I have to take care of pets and a husband I can't let him take care of me only and not reciprocate fuck this age sucks I'm like light years behind everyone and I have so many obstacles to deal with

[manuel_moe_g]

Hello CosM129, I wish I knew what to say. Please take care. You deserve better than this, I can feel it. You are a good person. You have been given too much to bear.

[MsMoore]

Dear Cos
I'm sorry you are feeling that way. I've had thoughts like that too. This website is really helpful. Check it out.
http://www.nowmattersnow.org/skill/suicidal-thoughts
Take care, Cheryl