imposter syndrome

[manuel_moe_g]

Heh, every time i hear about the concept of “imposter syndrome”, i have to laugh: my first reaction about myself is “i should run everything in the world, all the time, i alone have all the answers and have perfect judgement”. Forcing myself to pay attention to reality on reality’s own terms, i know that i would be the <WORST> at running <ANYTHING>, but my first gut reaction remains.

I am not supposed to say it, but the self-hatred my parents installed inside of me has many times been a gift, a counterforce to some really messed up thinking inside my head… lol