"I am nothing, I am a nobody", revisited

[Beany Boo]

I felt like I knew what compassion and self-compassion were. But when I first turned towards them and deliberately tried to experience and exercise them, I couldn’t. It’s a different proposition to actually practice them. Turning deliberately towards them the first time they felt like nothing.

I persevered and now my exercise of them is more like the effort of feebly batting at them. Or, more hopefully, like a kitten batting it’s paw on your arm. A small capacity but there are noticeable effects of the exercise, in my contact with the self and the world.

So, it’s not an option on a menu you just click to activate. When you start out, it feels like nothing. Then it grows.

[manuel_moe_g]

Hello Mental Fairy and Beany!

So, it’s not an option on a menu you just click to activate. When you start out, it feels like nothing.

I feel so bad for the younger selves that live inside me. I sometimes hate them so much.

[Mental Fairy]

https://www.newshub.co.nz/home/new-zealand/2022/06/christchurch-mental-health-patient-speaks-out-about-treatment-at-hillmorton-hospital.html

Hope you can open this. Example of our countries mental health facilities

[rivergirl]

Manny Moe,

Your quote makes me think of the Emily Dickinson poem, "I'm Nobody! Who are you?" which we may have discussed here before.

I won't try to convince you of anything regarding your worth this evening. I'll just say that you're somebody to me, and somebody special at that.

rg

[rivergirl]

I just noticed other posts I'd missed.

Beany, I love your image of the kitten. It's exactly how self-compassion felt to me at first. So slight that I doubted it was there at all, but it has grown to the point that at least some of the things I said and did to myself before are now a bit shocking to me.

Mental Fairy, your inner voices are so cruel and unfair. My heart goes out to you & I'm sending you hugs.

rg

[manuel_moe_g]

Yesterday I started feeling so foolish, because it took me 50 years on this earth to realize that the sun doesn't shine out of my ass. What an idiot.

[manuel_moe_g]

Ugh, and i have to wake up so darn early to get to work on time, an 2 hours thirty minutes to get out the door, because my head is so full of sleepiness, and i realized that being on the ADHD spectrum my executive functioning part of my brain is crap, so i plod so slowly through all the morning things i have to do. If i didn't take shower the night before, would be even worse, if that can be believed, how can anything be slower than a glacier.

[oak]

... because my head is so full of sleepiness,

Hmmm, Manuel Moe. I can't help but wonder if you have sleep apnea.

If you snore, I encourage you to contact a doctor.

If you ever wake up choking, then it is time for immediate action. If that ever happens, heaven forbid, contact me right away.

[oak]

Manuel Moe, the following Reddit link doesn’t have anything to do with this thread, per se, but I saw it and immediately thought about what you’ve posted about, here in the forum:

https://www.reddit.com/r/Jung/comments/kkknwp/me_vs_my_shadow_self/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=iossmf

[manuel_moe_g]

So hilarious!