YOU ARE NOT ALONE - A companion online community discussion board for The Mental Illness Happy Hour podcast with Paul Gilmartin

I feel suicidal there I said it. Every morning these days I wake up to feel like I want to kill myself, I hate it
I'm lost I don't want my husband or job to be everything to me in my life, the be all end all. I want to, want to be, independent if I lost these so important aspects of my life to not be unable to deal with it, no thank you! I've seen what that does to people I need to love me or like myself or just have some other things in life

I promise I won't hurt myself ok I mean it

I'm just 42 ,alone (mostly), no kids, no friends, no hobbies , no direction, FAT, I've gotten so FAT, scared about too much, off work so I will have to catch up and be a low down on the ladder, and I have to take care of pets and a husband I can't let him take care of me only and not reciprocate fuck this age sucks I'm like light years behind everyone and I have so many obstacles to deal with

Hello CosM129, I wish I knew what to say. Please take care. You deserve better than this, I can feel it. You are a good person. You have been given too much to bear.

Dear Cos
I'm sorry you are feeling that way. I've had thoughts like that too. This website is really helpful. Check it out.
http://www.nowmattersnow.org/skill/suicidal-thoughts
Take care, Cheryl