Upon Waking...

[snoringdog]

A toxic brew of anxiety, rumination and negative thoughts starts ramping up..

(Sometimes get good ideas in the morning, but other times, the thoughts start spinning).

Need to burn off some of this extra energy I guess..

[snoringdog]

"We are such stuff as dreams are made on....

and our little lives are rounded with a sleep"

[snoringdog]

The daily choice appears to be

1. Am I a victim? or

2. Do I have agency is all this?

Anxiety- a strong physical feeling, but surely coming from mental activity even when unidentifiable at the moment....

My thoughts & concerns range from the mundane to the cosmic, and can be overwhelming....

Need to slow down and breathe....
Maintain perspective and a sense of humor...

[snoringdog]

Anxiety

Self Doubt

Shame

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Breathe

Give myself a break

[snoringdog]

So easy to get pulled toward the negative, the dark, the sad...
Days are getting shorter, air is getting cooler. Time is passing.
Vague feelings of dread.....

Time to open my toolbox and root around.
A daily struggle.

[brownblob]

Well said

[snoringdog]

Some days I force myself to get up and the hell out of bed, just to stop the negative thoughts from coming in. Want a bit more sleep, but the ruminations start. Damn!

[brownblob]

For me, the ruminations tend to hit when I'm trying to sleep.

[snoringdog]

Well, here it is, years later. Same same.
Bit of jet lag from a trip, now 5am, been awake since 4.

Thoughts roiling. Reality returns
Looking for a short verse I posted here with the phrase "Dread and Dream".
My god, so much comes up on the board! So much water under the bridge.

Life hurts. Thinking hurts.

Birds are singing this morning, after high heat then a summer storm.
A beautiful house wren. A recent seasonal visitor. I know it's because it's getting warmer here...

[manuel_moe_g]

I am sorry you are going through a rough mental patch, SnoringDog