Like the whole world is against me.

[duck1]

My child is quarantined and I need to stay home with her
My boss didn't make any effort to allow me to work from home despite it being a stressful season at work. I think she hates me.

I wished her a good week and told her that I hope I will see her on Thursday.

No one at work contacted me to ask what up (but it is only the second day).

Now we need go do a corona test, my daughter ( a big kid) is dragging her feet and driving me crazy she is acting very disturbed lately.

When I go to work I bet u there are going to be piles of annoying work and that no one is going to cover up for me, I think they like seeing me get angry.

[duck1]

We are after test, I am grateful.

[manuel_moe_g]

Please take care, Duck1, you deserve better; keep the lines of communication open.

[duck1]

So my boss indeed hates me. I have proof.

It has been some mutual tension and resentment that has been built up for maybe years.

When I returned I indeed found my desk filled with shit (not literarlly but pretty close Stuff that was taken from elswhere and put on my desk.

She did not say one word of how are you and was very cold.

I don't know how long I can survive there.

[oak]

I’ve been in work situations like that and there is only one outcome: leaving. I encourage you to search Indeed jobs today (I recommend starting with remote jobs, but that’s up to you.)

[duck1]

Thanks OAK.Good Idea - you mean work from home? good idea

Rest of day really bad, almost has an accident because of carelessness lost my cool with my daghuter because of anxiety about the accident.

[duck1]

I think today was one of the lowest points of my life.
I mean everything together, work, lonliness, parenthood, the almot accident it all came crashing down.

It must mean tomorrow will be better.

Thank you very much for taking part.

[manuel_moe_g]

Take care, Duck1. This low point has a beginning, a middle, and an end. I am sending you good vibes for the end of this low point to come faster. Please keep the lines of communication open.

[duck1]

Update-
got text message from child's therapist, got scolded for behavior.

She is absolutley right unforutantely, but for me it was devastating.

felt so shitty. called anonymous hotline to discuss.

now feel a little better.

[oak]

You are doing the right things: calling a hotline and posting here.

You are not alone.