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The blues; few reasons to smile; heavy grief.
Posted: July 31st, 2023, 9:45 am
by oak
Hi friends.
For three days now I've had the blues. I don't know if I've ever felt this sad. I have an oppressive, heavy grief on me.
This is me using my words.
Please send good vibes for something good to happen for me this week: I could just use a little moment of serendipity and joy.
Re: The blues; few reasons to smile; heavy grief.
Posted: July 31st, 2023, 10:25 am
by oak
I am not surprised that I am sad; I am surprised that I am not more sad. How do I face the day?
Example sad thought:
I’ve been at my current job for 2.5 years, and in that time only one person has asked me how my job was going.
Re: The blues; few reasons to smile; heavy grief.
Posted: July 31st, 2023, 10:32 am
by oak
Here is The Hug Song:
Nobody gets enough hugs a day
‘Cause the minimum number is four
Now if you haven’t got Four Hugs today
Then you better get some more.
CHORUS:
Four Hugs a day, that’s the minimum
Four Hugs a day, not the maximum.
Here is how long I’ve been without hugs:
A girlfriend: six years.
Family of origin: two years.
Friends: two years, probably (though I'm sure they'd hug me if we met).
I can’t remember the last time I’ve been hugged. I am touch starved.
Re: The blues; few reasons to smile; heavy grief.
Posted: July 31st, 2023, 5:44 pm
by Mental Fairy
Somewhere someone is thinking of your smile
Who finds knowing you on here is truly worthwhile
So whenever you are feeling down, lonely or blue
Just remember i am thinking of you.
For you my friend, as always i wish i could make you and all of you on here dinner.
Re: The blues; few reasons to smile; heavy grief.
Posted: July 31st, 2023, 8:23 pm
by snoringdog
Friends: two years, probably (though I'm sure they'd hug me if we met).
Oak - Know too, that I would give you a hug if I could...
SD
Re: The blues; few reasons to smile; heavy grief.
Posted: August 1st, 2023, 5:26 am
by oak
Thank you Mental Fairy, Troebia, and SnoringDog.
Yesterday was as difficult as my post suggested.
Thanks to your encouragement, and fully acknowledging my emotions, I was able to create a provisional sort of plan to face today.
I’ve put in my calendar a reminder to post here again a year from now. I hope I’m in a happier place this time next year.
Re: The blues; few reasons to smile; heavy grief.
Posted: August 1st, 2023, 9:48 am
by manuel_moe_g
How does it feel to really sit with your feelings, Oak?
For me, I can only do it for a fraction of a second
I try to convert it into action right away, maybe because of my inability to sit with the feeling
Re: The blues; few reasons to smile; heavy grief.
Posted: August 1st, 2023, 4:01 pm
by oak
manuel_moe_g wrote: ↑August 1st, 2023, 9:48 am
How does it feel to really sit with your feelings, Oak?
For me, I can only do it for a fraction of a second
I try to convert it into action right away, maybe because of my inability to sit with the feeling
Hi Manuel Moe.
For me, grief (which is a manifestation and melange of anxiety and regret) shows up and leaves when it wants to: I am powerless over it.
I encourage you, just for fun, to try sitting with your feelings for up to five seconds.
Just see how it goes.
Re: The blues; few reasons to smile; heavy grief.
Posted: August 1st, 2023, 8:38 pm
by Mental Fairy
Something that helped me was sitting in a spot that i feel at rest, comfortable and warm. I then got out photos of the people that i was going through the grieving process for. I would give each some time of thought, allow the thoughts in, the tears or anger out. I would stretch and just be. I then learnt who was my main hurdle to deal with, who i needed to process, who i needed to just be with in a mental state for a bit.
This helped so much in the way of moving forward. I still do this from time to time.
Re: The blues; few reasons to smile; heavy grief.
Posted: August 2nd, 2023, 5:08 am
by oak
Friends, I was as sad as I've ever been on Monday. These truths are very difficult to face, but I didn't shirk.
That night I watched a film I find powerful, 2003's
Big Fish. At least through the heavenly/Garden of Eden town the character visits early on.
I was moved to tears by the kindness they show him. My heartfelt response reminds me that I am still human, that I have a heart.
Mental Fairy wrote: ↑August 1st, 2023, 8:38 pm
I would give each some time of thought, allow the thoughts in, the tears or anger out. I would stretch and just be. I
Thank you for this practice, Mental Fairy. I'll try it later today, and report back.