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In the middle of a double-dip depression - feeling my depression come on stronger, even thought I am already in a long bout of increased depression.

Proud of myself that I am doing the therapy thing.

Mainly:

[1] letting my egoistic grandiosity go,

[2] realizing that a 3% improvement I can maintain and build upon is valuable

[3] putting aside hope for a "bolt from the blue" that solves all my problems

[4] using Buddhist acceptance, mindfulness, compassion, patience, peace as a way to live with my ADHD mind

I am a pretty depressed dude right now, with whole bunches of feelings of overwhelm and anxiety and defeat. But I am still putting one foot in front of the other, which is good.

Hi Manuel

Sorry you're having a tough time, going back to therapy will help a bit I'm sure. I'm feeling it too so you've got company, I've been thinking of going through CBT to try to change the way I feel about myself. I'll put one foot in front of the other beside you. Big hugs from me, Rosie

Thanks, Rosie! I have to tutor myself and build myself up, just like when I try to tutor someone on something I know about, like math. I try different things, I work around the edges until the way to help is clear, and I build them up and never tear them down, and I let them know all the resources available to them. Just do the same for myself.

Thanks again, Rosie, for your warm words!

Sorry to hear it Manuel. Any ideas on why you're feeling the way you are? Uncover something in therapy?

Hang in there.

I am using cognitive therapy to improve my life and performance, not really to unearth anything from my past. I have always been intensely honest (TMI is my MO ) so I don't really expect anything to be uncovered - my double-dip depression is probably chemical. I am really anxious about changing my meds that I have been stable on for so many years, but new meds is a possibility