Can't think of a reason
Posted: June 16th, 2012, 8:16 pm
So, um yeah. I can't think of a reason not to kill myself. Or rather, I can't think of anyone whom I would be causing major pain if I did. I know some would feel minor pain, but I think they would get over it faster than they might imagine. And at least I'd be out of pain.
It occurs to me, and not for the first time, that life is for me too much of a one-sided conversation. It feels to me like I do all the talking and the reaching out and the world just, silently, yanks its hands back and I fall.
I take something back I said above, sorta. I can think of a reason not to kill myself. But if the only reason you can think of not to do that is the slim possibility that you'll feel better tomorrow, that's probably a bad sign in and of itself.
It occurs to me, and not for the first time, that life is for me too much of a one-sided conversation. It feels to me like I do all the talking and the reaching out and the world just, silently, yanks its hands back and I fall.
I take something back I said above, sorta. I can think of a reason not to kill myself. But if the only reason you can think of not to do that is the slim possibility that you'll feel better tomorrow, that's probably a bad sign in and of itself.