can't get out of my own way today

[Kit Pistol]

Hi,

I'm new to writing on this website. Today is my day off. It is Sunny and 80 degrees out. I tried to go to a class at the YMCA 2x today. Both were cancelled. It totally took the wind out of my sails. I've struggled to regain any sort of energy that I had before the class. I'm missing the day and I can't get out of my own way. I need to clean, garden, cook, and I'm just sitting here. I'm going to try coffee. Sigh. Yes, the world is passing me by.

So frustrated with myself,

Kit Pistol

[manuel_moe_g]

Sometimes I build up for 45 minutes to get 3 minutes of work done.

If I am picking a strategic 3 minutes of work, it isn't a total waste.

Action is the best motivation, inside depression, it is pointless to look for motivation to precede action, in my experience.

Please take care, all the best.

[weary]

Just making the attempt to go to the classes at the Y is something I hope that you can feel good about looking back on it. It sucks when things don't work out. When you say you "need" to clean, garden, cook - will you get any satisfaction from doing those things or having them completed, or are they just things you "have" to do? I have trouble getting motivated to do things that I feel like I "should" do, but I'm trying to learn how to remind myself that I am making a choice to do those things - nobody is forcing me to do them. If I am compelled to do them, there must be some need of mine that will be met on some level by doing them - the trick can be figuring out what it is so I can find a way to look at it that will be motivational. I hope that you're having a better day today.