twisted up
Posted: November 26th, 2013, 7:47 pm
fuck, i feel exhausted, really. i don't even know how i got myself tangled up in these knots, but i did.
i'm tired of my stupid fucking body filling me up over my head with directionless dread, and being so serious about stupid fucking shit i don't want to care about. and i'm tired of "whiting out" during mild social encounters that i don't even want to give a shit about. jesus christ.
i hate my body for making me sad or scared all of the time, sick all of the time, confused, and unable to get a grip enough to do anything i find important.
on top of that, it also fucking hurts from sleeping. seriously, fucking asshole body? you hurt yourself while you're sleeping? and you're ugly, and what food can you handle without breaking down? seriously, i wish i could return you. all of the other women in my family are model gorgeous and i can't eat 80% of foods, somehow i'm still fatter than everyone else, and my face is completely fucked. thanks, genes.
i feel hateful.
but i don't think i want to hurt myself anymore, so that's good. thanks, forums.
i'm trying to be gentle. fuck.
i'm tired of my stupid fucking body filling me up over my head with directionless dread, and being so serious about stupid fucking shit i don't want to care about. and i'm tired of "whiting out" during mild social encounters that i don't even want to give a shit about. jesus christ.
i hate my body for making me sad or scared all of the time, sick all of the time, confused, and unable to get a grip enough to do anything i find important.
on top of that, it also fucking hurts from sleeping. seriously, fucking asshole body? you hurt yourself while you're sleeping? and you're ugly, and what food can you handle without breaking down? seriously, i wish i could return you. all of the other women in my family are model gorgeous and i can't eat 80% of foods, somehow i'm still fatter than everyone else, and my face is completely fucked. thanks, genes.
i feel hateful.
but i don't think i want to hurt myself anymore, so that's good. thanks, forums.
i'm trying to be gentle. fuck.