Angry, Irritable. At my mother. Again. I'm 27.

[fortuneboy251]

Hi there,

I am a 27 year old Male who's just recently qualified with a BA degree in music and now having difficulty coping with the juggling an exhausting healthcare job with trying to make something of my educational training. My mother has always been there to listen to my struggles over the phone, throughout my life and more so throughout my college year.

For the past few months I've been calling my mother, or she calls me and I answer, and the conversations always leave me angry, bitter, exhausted.

Today it's 9pm when she called (politely returning a call I made to her about 2 hours previous) and I let her know that I still feel depressed, and due to lack of sleep, failed to make it into work today. I get a replaying of a speech she has already given me about having to respect work. I UNDERSTAND this but hey.

There is more to the reason why i'm so angry right now, such as her suggesting that she will buy me a drum kit so I can learn to drum for a band that she thinks will be successful: I'm so fucking confused about this, she might be right but I'm struggling with the idea of joining the band for personal reasons... I am sensitive about my musical endeavours and the insistence that I should do what she says just added to my emotional state. I had just finished some work on my own music when she rang and it just felt like she took a shit on my vibe. I have to get up and work in the morning yet this phone call has left me so angry and tired that I'm too angry to sleep (hence why I'm typing this here).

If anyone sees this post and feels like they might need to call me out on my bullshit or needs to know extra details to help me out, let me know.

[manuel_moe_g]

Hello fortuneboy251, welcome to our little forum.

What you describe is not bullshit. We have histories with our parents that make powerful resentments flare up over the smallest of triggers.