I'm not quite sure
Posted: June 10th, 2014, 8:06 pm
I've been off of Prozac & Welbutrin for 5 weeks today. I've been doing OK. it's a whole new experience to feel feelings again after 5 years of taking antidepressants. Today has been tough for some reason but I can't put my finger on it. The anxiety is definitely there. I'm so tired. I have homework to do & baby books to make but I just want to sleep. I have been crying a lot lately which is kind of cool. I haven't done that in years. My heart just feels so full. I don't know if that's good or bad. I want to hug everyone I know. I want to change the world. Is this the mania people talk about or does the unmedicated me actually care about people? I feel like there's not enough air. Like I'm suffocating. Like I can't get enough of something. Except I don't know what that something is. It feels like how I felt when I quit smoking 5 years ago. That constant need for a cigarette. That feeling that if I don't have one I will die. I just don't know. Hopefully tomorrow I feel better.