Need to vent
Posted: July 8th, 2014, 5:06 pm
I AM SO SICK of irresponsible people!!!!!!!!!!! My agitated depression makes it hard for me to cut slack for the slackers of the world. I spend time cultivating a relationship with a prospective client who then contacts ME to say "Hey, I'm paying you right now for our session tomorrow", and then guess what? No payment, no communication. What happened, were you hit by a truck, you fucking moron? Do you not understand that I am not only in a position to help you, but know MOST OF THE PEOPLE YOU WILL NEED TO IMPRESS FOR YOUR CAREER??? OR what about common courtesy, you fucktard? Oh, wait, let me guess, that's why you're still a waiter. Cuz you have the professional communication/business skills of road tar. You book and then say you are paying and then nothing, and then don't respond to my email. WTF? You are wasting my time.
It doesn't help that I got fooled again by my narcissistic mother after mother's day. She writes a fucking nasty email to me, accusing me of something my brother did. I don't communicate with her for several weeks and then she calls. I tell her (for the one millionth time) I've been really sick with an ongoing health problem, including depression, which at one point was dangerous. When I told her that her email upset me, she starts yelling and raging at the top of her lungs and hangs up. Then emails that she "hopes we can agree to disagree."
Classic sign of a narcissist:
"If you try to confront her about something she's done, she'll tell you that you have "a very vivid imagination" (this is a phrase commonly used by abusers of all sorts to invalidate your experience of their abuse) that you don't know what you're talking about, or that she has no idea what you're talking about. She will claim not to remember even very memorable events, flatly denying they ever happened, nor will she ever acknowledge any possibility that she might have forgotten. This is an extremely aggressive and exceptionally infuriating tactic called "gaslighting," common to abusers of all kinds. Your perceptions of reality are continually undermined so that you end up without any confidence in your intuition, your memory or your powers of reasoning. This makes you a much better victim for the abuser.
Narcissists gaslight routinely. The narcissist will either insinuate or will tell you outright that you're unstable, otherwise you wouldn't believe such ridiculous things or be so uncooperative. You're oversensitive. You're imagining things. You're hysterical. You're completely unreasonable. You're over-reacting, like you always do. She'll talk to you when you've calmed down and aren't so irrational. She may even characterize you as being neurotic or psychotic. "
http://parrishmiller.com/narcissists.html
So fuck her and fuck my whole family. I am SOOOOOO HHHAAAAAAAPPPPPPPYYYYYYY when I don't even think about them at all. I have friends who love me. My therapist loves me so much, sometimes she gives me free sessions. My cleaning lady loves me so much she won't take my money and cleans for free and brings me presents. My clients love me. I volunteer in my field and the people who receive my services love me and think I am rockin' awesome. I am finally understanding what it feels like to love and be loved, and to not have to live in a world of snarky, contemptuous assholes. Thank the FUCK-GOD!
It doesn't help that I got fooled again by my narcissistic mother after mother's day. She writes a fucking nasty email to me, accusing me of something my brother did. I don't communicate with her for several weeks and then she calls. I tell her (for the one millionth time) I've been really sick with an ongoing health problem, including depression, which at one point was dangerous. When I told her that her email upset me, she starts yelling and raging at the top of her lungs and hangs up. Then emails that she "hopes we can agree to disagree."
Classic sign of a narcissist:
"If you try to confront her about something she's done, she'll tell you that you have "a very vivid imagination" (this is a phrase commonly used by abusers of all sorts to invalidate your experience of their abuse) that you don't know what you're talking about, or that she has no idea what you're talking about. She will claim not to remember even very memorable events, flatly denying they ever happened, nor will she ever acknowledge any possibility that she might have forgotten. This is an extremely aggressive and exceptionally infuriating tactic called "gaslighting," common to abusers of all kinds. Your perceptions of reality are continually undermined so that you end up without any confidence in your intuition, your memory or your powers of reasoning. This makes you a much better victim for the abuser.
Narcissists gaslight routinely. The narcissist will either insinuate or will tell you outright that you're unstable, otherwise you wouldn't believe such ridiculous things or be so uncooperative. You're oversensitive. You're imagining things. You're hysterical. You're completely unreasonable. You're over-reacting, like you always do. She'll talk to you when you've calmed down and aren't so irrational. She may even characterize you as being neurotic or psychotic. "
http://parrishmiller.com/narcissists.html
So fuck her and fuck my whole family. I am SOOOOOO HHHAAAAAAAPPPPPPPYYYYYYY when I don't even think about them at all. I have friends who love me. My therapist loves me so much, sometimes she gives me free sessions. My cleaning lady loves me so much she won't take my money and cleans for free and brings me presents. My clients love me. I volunteer in my field and the people who receive my services love me and think I am rockin' awesome. I am finally understanding what it feels like to love and be loved, and to not have to live in a world of snarky, contemptuous assholes. Thank the FUCK-GOD!
