YOU ARE NOT ALONE - A companion online community discussion board for The Mental Illness Happy Hour podcast with Paul Gilmartin

The biggest thing that has kept me from spending too much time questioning myself which I wrote down so that it would help me remember:

"Just because you are aware of something negative within yourself, it does not mean you have failed"

thank you Hidalgo, i love this. will try to remember this.

"Just because you are aware of something negative within yourself, it does not mean you have failed"

From Ariel:
"Whatever you felt last night, whatever needle was stitching its initials into your heart was felt by a hundred other hearts. Whatever growls in the darkest corner of your memory is a beast that others have fed. You are not the only person who feels ugly tonight. You are not the only person who can’t seem to find the right words until the conversation is over. Who doesn’t know what the fuck they’re doing on this carousel. Who cries for no reason or never cries or only cries when you feel like your life is finally standing still and you don’t know what to do when nothing is going wrong. […] It isn’t about always being happy. That shit is unhealthy. But you are only alone if you ignore all the other people who are exactly like you."

Sierra Demulder - my favorite poet

[quote]We are none of us alone
even as we exhale it is inhaled by others
the light that shines upon me, shines upon my neighbor also
in this way, everything is connected to everything else
In this way, I am connected to my friend, even as I am connected to my enemy
In this way, there is no difference between me, and my friend
In this way, there is no difference between me, and my enemy
We are none of us alone
/quote]

-from the tv show "Life," which is no longer on the air

Lily Allen: The Fear

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FOyh6bircK4

I don't know what's right and what's real anymore
And I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
And when do you think it will all become clear?
'Cause I'm being taking over by The Fear

It's Only LIfe by The Shins has become this weird touchpoint - both good and bad - between my wife and I.


Died in the world, you've been cornered by a natural desire
You want to hop along with the giddy throng through life
But how will you learn to steer when you're grinding all your gears?

You've been talking for hours
You say time will wash every tower to the sea
And now you've got this worry in your heart

Well I guess it's only life, it's only natural
We all spend a little while going down the rabbit hole
The things they taught you, they're lining up to haunt you
You got your back against the wall
I call you on the telephone, won't you pick up the receiver?

I've been down the very road you're walking now
It doesn't have to be so dark and lonesome
It takes a while but we can figure this thing out
And turn it back around

You used to be such a lion
Before you got into all this crying on my lap
Back when you thought I'd never get this far

But did you really think I'd shut an open door?
The future's calling and Imma answer her
The wheels in motion, I never drank your potion
And I know it breaks your heart
Open up your parachute, something's gotta stop the freefall

I've been down the very road you're walking now
It doesn't have to be so dark and lonesome
It takes a while but we can figure this thing out
And turn it back around

"You can't tell me what my spirit tells me isn't true, can you?"-The Mountain Goats White Cedar from the album Transcendental Youth

"Boot Camp"
By: Soundgarden
Album: Down on the upside

I must obey the rules
I must be tame and cool
No staring at the clouds
I must stay on the ground
In clusters of the mice
The smoke is in our eyes
Like babies on display
Like angels in a cage
I must be pure and true
I must contain my views
There must be something else
There must be something good
Far away

When I'm really freaking dark this one too:
I like the Johnny Cash cover too but credit goes to NIN
Artist: Nine inch Nails
Album: The downward spiral 1994

I hurt myself today,
To see if I'd still feel.
I focus on the pain,
The only thing that's real.
The needle tears a hole,
The old familiar sting;
Try to kill it all away,
But I remember everything.

What have I become,
My sweetest friend?
Everyone I know,
Goes away in the end.
You could have it all,
My empire of dirt.
I will let you down,
I will make you hurt...

I wear this crown of shit,
Upon my liar's chair,
Full of broken thoughts,
I cannot repair.
Beneath the stains of time,
The feelings disappear.
You are someone else,
I am still right here.

What have I become,
My sweetest friend?
Everyone I know,
Goes away in the end.
And you could have it all,
My empire of dirt,
I will let you down,
I will make you hurt.

If I could start again,
A million miles away,
I would keep myself,
I would find a way.