Fifth Sonata,fifthsonata wrote:
I just need to vent. Trigger warning. I don't want advice or anything.
I'm so sorry that you hurt so badly. Please keep venting if you need to. You don't have to suffer alone. We're here for you.
the inner monologue
Re: the inner monologue
I'm so sorry that you hurt so badly. Please keep venting if you need to. You don't have to suffer alone. We're here for you.
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TreeHugger
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Re: the inner monologue
fifthsonata,
I wish I could give you a hug. And a bandage.
I relate to your desperate question about WHY???? It's so hard to make sense of depression. It just feels ridiculous that you can't explain why the world is so painful to you. I have never been a cutter, but I do other things instead. Eat, mostly. It's the only physical thing that makes me feel good. Play solitaire on my computer for hours on end, just so I can ignore the fact that I am utterly alone and terrified. Sob uncontrollably. Sleep to escape my life. Why? I wish I could tell you. I wish some of it made sense. I hope you can find some peace.
I wish I could give you a hug. And a bandage.
I relate to your desperate question about WHY???? It's so hard to make sense of depression. It just feels ridiculous that you can't explain why the world is so painful to you. I have never been a cutter, but I do other things instead. Eat, mostly. It's the only physical thing that makes me feel good. Play solitaire on my computer for hours on end, just so I can ignore the fact that I am utterly alone and terrified. Sob uncontrollably. Sleep to escape my life. Why? I wish I could tell you. I wish some of it made sense. I hope you can find some peace.
"I only went out for a walk, and finally concluded to stay out till sundown, for going out, I found, was really going in."
--John Muir
--John Muir
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meh
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- Issues: Bipolar, depression, general all around ick
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Re: the inner monologue
If I could reach through this monitor I'd give you a hug and tell you that you aren't alone. We're all fighting our own personal horror shows but we're here for you. Please vent away.
"Of course you have an active inner life, you're bipolar"
my therapist.
my therapist.