BULIMIA (written: circa mid-1990's)

[WiltedRose]

ONE MORE LAST TIME

I gave myself one more day,
One more time,
Because I know I'll start tomorrow.

I ate everything I wanted with no restrictions,
Because I knew this was the last binge.

I hurt all over from purging, but that's all right,
Because this will be the last time.

I lied to my friend and said I'm doing fine, but that's okay,
Because this will be the last time.

I ignored my family, but that's all right, I'll make it up to them,
Because this will be the last time.

I couldn't think straight because of all the food, but that's all
right, Because this will be the last time.

I didn't do all the things I said I would, but that's okay,
Because this will be the last time.

I was so busy eating so I was late for appointments, but that's all right,
Because this will be the last time.

I spent too much money on my special binge food, but that's okay,
Because this will be the last time.

I stayed up too late eating it all alone, but that's all right,
Because this will be the last time.

Now my last time day is over, and I'm afraid.
Too many years of last time days have slipped by…
Please God, don't let me give myself just one more.