Is this plausible? Please advise.
Posted: June 4th, 2020, 5:26 pm
Hi friends. I'll be posting in another thread soon about the physical effects of trauma to my body (car wrecks as an adult, bullying as a child). But first I wanted to run this summary by you; can you please advise as to if this reasonable?
TLDR Summary
Like many people, the COVID quarantine exposed my former life as unsatisfying. I have the ability/means to ramp up my job search later in the summer. Do you approve of my plan (which I'll share in another thread) to spend June on active healing?
Feel free to skip to "In Conclusion" below!
Same question in longer form:
1. After getting sober in 2008, it took some time to get my life in order.
2. Circa 2013 I began to get my professional life in order.
3. This took enormous energy, luck, and kindness from my new professional colleagues. I made it. But at what cost?
4. From 2013 to 2020, without trying or meaning to, I neglected physical and social activity that made life meaningful. Considering the stakes of professional failure, which I was well acquainted with, I see this compromise as worth it. Though at a terrible price, as I'd find out in March of this year.
5. On March 23 I lost my job and spent the next two months unable to move. Grief fried every cell, and weighed me down. I believe this grief was caused by ignoring these important sides of my life: the physical, and fun.
6. In this new life, thankfully making it through the intense grief described above, I rightfully see work as AN important part of a full life, but no longer as the ONLY part of my life.
7. I have a clear, detailed, objective, measurable plan for daily/weekly/monthly plans for tai chi, martial arts, dancing, and hopefully dating. (I will be happy to share the broad outlines of this plan in another thread!) Effecting these would go a long way to bringing balance back to my life.
8. Thanks to unemployment, I can ramp up my job search in late summer.
9. But I don't want to thoughtlessly throw myself back into the job search (professional life as my only life), because that didn't work the first time (see #5). While I have easily and happily applied for some jobs already in my skill set, my mind or psyche has rebelled at taking time to teach myself to code, something I found very enjoyable 2014 to late 2019.
In conclusion
Does it seem reasonable for me to put a demand on myself to begin effecting the details of tai chi/dancing/martial arts in June, and then ramp up the job search in July and following?
Please advise!
Also, let me know if I am missing anything, or need to consider anything more deeply.
Thank you very much. Your advice means so much to me.
TLDR Summary
Like many people, the COVID quarantine exposed my former life as unsatisfying. I have the ability/means to ramp up my job search later in the summer. Do you approve of my plan (which I'll share in another thread) to spend June on active healing?
Feel free to skip to "In Conclusion" below!
Same question in longer form:
1. After getting sober in 2008, it took some time to get my life in order.
2. Circa 2013 I began to get my professional life in order.
3. This took enormous energy, luck, and kindness from my new professional colleagues. I made it. But at what cost?
4. From 2013 to 2020, without trying or meaning to, I neglected physical and social activity that made life meaningful. Considering the stakes of professional failure, which I was well acquainted with, I see this compromise as worth it. Though at a terrible price, as I'd find out in March of this year.
5. On March 23 I lost my job and spent the next two months unable to move. Grief fried every cell, and weighed me down. I believe this grief was caused by ignoring these important sides of my life: the physical, and fun.
6. In this new life, thankfully making it through the intense grief described above, I rightfully see work as AN important part of a full life, but no longer as the ONLY part of my life.
7. I have a clear, detailed, objective, measurable plan for daily/weekly/monthly plans for tai chi, martial arts, dancing, and hopefully dating. (I will be happy to share the broad outlines of this plan in another thread!) Effecting these would go a long way to bringing balance back to my life.
8. Thanks to unemployment, I can ramp up my job search in late summer.
9. But I don't want to thoughtlessly throw myself back into the job search (professional life as my only life), because that didn't work the first time (see #5). While I have easily and happily applied for some jobs already in my skill set, my mind or psyche has rebelled at taking time to teach myself to code, something I found very enjoyable 2014 to late 2019.
In conclusion
Does it seem reasonable for me to put a demand on myself to begin effecting the details of tai chi/dancing/martial arts in June, and then ramp up the job search in July and following?
Please advise!
Also, let me know if I am missing anything, or need to consider anything more deeply.
Thank you very much. Your advice means so much to me.