stream of consciousness

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stream of consciousness

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I would like to apologize in advance for this post. I hope you all are having a good holiday, but this is always a bad time of year for me.

I am in a dark place today. My life is flashing before my eyes. I do not fit into this world. I am uncomfortably numb. My traumas are too minor and numerous to list. My goal in life has always been to be the invisible man. I am a recluse. I have been rejected by the world and have in turn rejected it. There is something wrong with my brain. It is not what it used to be. I live in a state of exhaustion and panic. I cannot focus or concentrate. I am alone. I never found my tribe. I no longer feel purpose to my life. I am alive only because I have a pulse. I have not lived. I have no value.
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BrownBlob, thank you for sharing.
Work is love made visible. -Kahlil Gibran
A person with a "why" can endure any "how". -Viktor Frankl
Which is better: to be born good or to overcome your evil nature through great effort? -Skyrim
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You’re the best BB.
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‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan

‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb

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Post by manuel_moe_g »

No apologies needed, it is an honor to read your posts. Depression is a mind-fuck.
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brownblob,

I feel inadequate to say anything helpful. I care and am sending you hugs.

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Hello Brownblob,

For what it's worth, we are here and we are listening.

You *do* have value.

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