My family are fuckups and my twin holds me back
Posted: April 10th, 2016, 10:31 am
So here's the skinny:
At 15 I was told that my father was not my real Dad, after being told this I was to never tell anyone else because my family was ashamed of the fact that both me and twin was the product of an affair; I was to never tell my younger sister and was threatened by my twin that if I ever did he would run away, eventually I thought to myself 'my family can go fuck themselves' and told my younger sister (which turned out great).
After pulling sleep-depriving night-shifts serving drunk nightclub idiots for 1 year at McDonalds I had saved enough money to go to my bio-Dad's country and to meet him so I could put to rest who he was (I thought he was boring and have no desire to meet him again), but his sister (my Mum's best friend) treated us and made me feel like I was actually part of a family rather than collection of self-loathing individuals.
Now my twin threatens to cut connections to me if I tell others outside of people in the know (my immediate family because he has no amnesia-inducing superpowers) whilst denying that my biological family exists (who I love).
4 months after being confronted I realize that my family is impotent and the only people in the family that I love (not owe love) is my younger sister (who can't help) and my older sister (who I do not blame for not helping, she keeps in contact, but is not part of the maladaptive part of my family). My Dad is ashamed of who I am and is fine with viewing everything from the sidelines and my Mum is (god bless her) is fucking useless when making decisions and lets everyone in my family walk over her.
Fuck you M, you're not my keeper.
At 15 I was told that my father was not my real Dad, after being told this I was to never tell anyone else because my family was ashamed of the fact that both me and twin was the product of an affair; I was to never tell my younger sister and was threatened by my twin that if I ever did he would run away, eventually I thought to myself 'my family can go fuck themselves' and told my younger sister (which turned out great).
After pulling sleep-depriving night-shifts serving drunk nightclub idiots for 1 year at McDonalds I had saved enough money to go to my bio-Dad's country and to meet him so I could put to rest who he was (I thought he was boring and have no desire to meet him again), but his sister (my Mum's best friend) treated us and made me feel like I was actually part of a family rather than collection of self-loathing individuals.
Now my twin threatens to cut connections to me if I tell others outside of people in the know (my immediate family because he has no amnesia-inducing superpowers) whilst denying that my biological family exists (who I love).
4 months after being confronted I realize that my family is impotent and the only people in the family that I love (not owe love) is my younger sister (who can't help) and my older sister (who I do not blame for not helping, she keeps in contact, but is not part of the maladaptive part of my family). My Dad is ashamed of who I am and is fine with viewing everything from the sidelines and my Mum is (god bless her) is fucking useless when making decisions and lets everyone in my family walk over her.
Fuck you M, you're not my keeper.
