some of my fears
Posted: June 23rd, 2015, 4:24 am
- I'm afraid my options are running out
- I'm afraid of becoming homeless or having to live in a violent poverty zone (what Chris Hedges calls "Sacrifice Zones")
- I'm afraid of Peak Oil
- I'm afraid that I'm only afraid of Peak Oil because oil is required to produce nylon and I love nothing more than a woman in nylon stockings
- I'm afraid of cancer
- I'm afraid that I will get cancer if I ever dare to stop being miserable
- I'm afraid I'll never get to the bottom of my shame-based self-defeating behaviors and habits and learn to somewhat manage them one by one
- I'm afraid that on an emotional level I'll never even truly understand that my self-defeating actions are shame-based
- "I'm afraid you don't meet our profile, sir."
- I'm afraid of looking for a job or a relationship, not because I'm afraid I couldn't "score", but because whenever I've had the choice I've made the wrong, self-defeating choice
- I'm afraid that not looking for a job or a relationship is still just a play on me making the wrong, self-defeating choice
- I'm afraid of coming across people who are actually living the life I want to live
- I'm afraid that I'll never be able to recognize and trust good people who want to touch me
- I'm afraid that I'll never stop being too naive and trusting with bad people
- I'm afraid I'll never meet a person who wants to understand me
- I'm afraid my horrific snoring will prevent me from even wanting to enter a relationship ever again (Why would I do that to a woman I love?)