Being known

[Axial]

I fear being known because if you know me, you will reject me.
I fear being known because you might want to spend more time with me, then I'll have to keep the friendship going.
I fear being known because you might not want to know me
I fear my aging body
I fear waking up & having the same flatlining day tomorrow that I had today & yesterday
I fear not being able to 'be' the woman I'm 'supposed' to be, whatever society deems that to be
I fear my appetite
I fear fatness
I fear dying through a bad surfing accident
I fear not being able to financially support my single, middle aged ass & dying homeless