YOU ARE NOT ALONE - A companion online community discussion board for The Mental Illness Happy Hour podcast with Paul Gilmartin

If I ignore the chronic pains I get will be something serious.
I fear that I'll die alone.
I suffer from health anxiety, and those things go through my mind all the time.

I fear failure

...that I will be seen as an idiot
....that I really am not a smart person
... that I am really a selfish horrible person that my inner voice is right and I am truly worthless and not capable
... that I am truly the worst mother in the world that it is my fault that my oldest is autistic and my middle has learning disabilities and ADHD - that I am broken goods producing broken goods
... that I am so unattractive both inside and out that I will never be accepted
... that I will die alone
... that I am really not loved that no one really loves me
... on deep dark days I fear that my darkness was right when I thought to leave the earth that its better off without me
... that I am a monster or a robot or a monster robot that can't access feelings but can't not feel others feelings and wants to help but just messes up lives and then will be left alone