YOU ARE NOT ALONE - A companion online community discussion board for The Mental Illness Happy Hour podcast with Paul Gilmartin

I fear:
-I have no future
-I am unlovable
-I will hate myself forever
-I am toxic to everyone around me
-I will never be "me"

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more fears:
-that this is all i can be
-that I can be more but cannot do the work necessary to get there
-being wrong and saying the wrong thing (terrified)
-that I will be or am just like my mother, never getting better, but never "able" to end it (so far).
-being ok because I have never really felt that for any length of time.-

I understand the mother one!

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Darkness Inside Me wrote:more fears:
-that this is all i can be
-that I can be more but cannot do the work necessary to get there
-being wrong and saying the wrong thing (terrified)

Oh yes, I feel these ones deep in my soul as well.

I fear that I will always be waiting for the right time to kill myself.

I fear that because I have basically given up and am not really trying to get better, I will be seen as someone who just wants attention, a whiner, lazy, and not welcome here.

Darkness Inside Me wrote:more fears:
-that this is all i can be

This one really hits home for me. I think it's at the core of the difficulties I have managing my depression/anxiety/eating disorder because there is a part of me that has already resigned to my "fate."

Cheldoll wrote: This one really hits home for me. I think it's at the core of the difficulties I have managing my depression/anxiety/eating disorder because there is a part of me that has already resigned to my "fate."

that is how I feel too.