One year since my dad died
Posted: April 9th, 2017, 5:45 am
The one year anniversary of my dad's death is coming up in a few weeks. I was hit hard by his death, especially because my favorite aunt had died a couple of months before. I've been maintaining my life at the lowest basic level since then. I pay the bills (late), do the minimum amount of cleaning and laundry, have my kitchen just organized enough that I can fix cereal or a frozen dinner.
Last week I spoke to the NP who prescribes my psych meds about increasing my dose of Effexor; he said that I'm at the max. My research shows that is not exactly the case but the clinic I have to go to has strange rules about meds. He (reluctantly) added Wellbutrin at the lowest dose. I also take Gabapentin for anxiety as the clinic does not prescribe benzos.
Relatives have told me that what I'm experiencing is normal. I also should add that because my mother died when I was 4 years old I don't do well with loss.
I need to get myself to a grief support group but dragging myself to a meeting seems like more than I can do. I'm trying to stop beating myself up over wanting to recover from this loss on a timeline.
Suggestions appreciated.
Last week I spoke to the NP who prescribes my psych meds about increasing my dose of Effexor; he said that I'm at the max. My research shows that is not exactly the case but the clinic I have to go to has strange rules about meds. He (reluctantly) added Wellbutrin at the lowest dose. I also take Gabapentin for anxiety as the clinic does not prescribe benzos.
Relatives have told me that what I'm experiencing is normal. I also should add that because my mother died when I was 4 years old I don't do well with loss.
I need to get myself to a grief support group but dragging myself to a meeting seems like more than I can do. I'm trying to stop beating myself up over wanting to recover from this loss on a timeline.
Suggestions appreciated.