Used my Christmas Words: Frank Sinatra understands.
Posted: December 25th, 2019, 5:29 pm
Being willing to be my own person, Grinch or not, I took three actions last night that would have gotten shame heaped on me at every time previous in my life:
1. Knowing that my family of origin's Christmas dinner was alleged to start "at 5", after a not-difficult day at work I stopped by Sheetz (a gas station that sells good road food) and enjoyed two chili dogs and a peanut butter cup shake. They were divine. To one's surprise, the food wasn't out until 7. I choose not to get HALT.
2. Between the siblings and their children, Christmas Eve is a cacophony of noise. And while no one is mean to me, no one really asks anything about me. (My siblings all live within twenty minutes of my apartment, but have never visited in the 1.5 years I've lived here. They've gotten pizza (and not invited me) that they had to drive right past my apartment complex.) I went to the laundry room and looked at the news on my phone. I can handle only so much noise.
3. After three hours of noise and being ignored, sort of mid-party, I politely excused myself.
Any of these would be nuclear-grade Insults to Christmas and The Family and Good Taste and Why Are You Like This and You Ruined [holiday]
Yeah, I come from a real shaming family.
I accepted/expected this garbage because I was.....underemployed?
It seems silly to believe that, typing it here, but that was my life.
General Thoughts on Christmas
Since getting sober I've really come to enjoy and appreciate Christmas especially, and also Halloween and Thanksgiving.
Do I love the song "All I Want for Christmas Is You"? Yes, of course.
But I prefer a quiet, meditative Christmas. A touch of nostalgia, and more melancholy and gratitude: I made it to another Christmas; others weren't so lucky.
My ideal Christmas is best summed up by the Frank Sinatra version of "Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas" (second only to "You Are My Sunshine" for the most downer lyrics for a song with a cheerful word in the title.)
https://genius.com/Frank-sinatra-have-y ... mas-lyrics
It acknowledges that yeah, things suck this year. But next year things will be good.
"Some day we all will be together, if the fates allow"
That's some Christmas for me. That's perfect.
1. Knowing that my family of origin's Christmas dinner was alleged to start "at 5", after a not-difficult day at work I stopped by Sheetz (a gas station that sells good road food) and enjoyed two chili dogs and a peanut butter cup shake. They were divine. To one's surprise, the food wasn't out until 7. I choose not to get HALT.
2. Between the siblings and their children, Christmas Eve is a cacophony of noise. And while no one is mean to me, no one really asks anything about me. (My siblings all live within twenty minutes of my apartment, but have never visited in the 1.5 years I've lived here. They've gotten pizza (and not invited me) that they had to drive right past my apartment complex.) I went to the laundry room and looked at the news on my phone. I can handle only so much noise.
3. After three hours of noise and being ignored, sort of mid-party, I politely excused myself.
Any of these would be nuclear-grade Insults to Christmas and The Family and Good Taste and Why Are You Like This and You Ruined [holiday]
Yeah, I come from a real shaming family.
I accepted/expected this garbage because I was.....underemployed?
It seems silly to believe that, typing it here, but that was my life.
General Thoughts on Christmas
Since getting sober I've really come to enjoy and appreciate Christmas especially, and also Halloween and Thanksgiving.
Do I love the song "All I Want for Christmas Is You"? Yes, of course.
But I prefer a quiet, meditative Christmas. A touch of nostalgia, and more melancholy and gratitude: I made it to another Christmas; others weren't so lucky.
My ideal Christmas is best summed up by the Frank Sinatra version of "Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas" (second only to "You Are My Sunshine" for the most downer lyrics for a song with a cheerful word in the title.)
https://genius.com/Frank-sinatra-have-y ... mas-lyrics
It acknowledges that yeah, things suck this year. But next year things will be good.
"Some day we all will be together, if the fates allow"
That's some Christmas for me. That's perfect.